Hello Mandy, thank you for finding my story, for reading it and for engaging so thoroughly. The good thing is, you are aware of it, which means you can work with it, sit with it. You don't just shake (forgive my unintended choice of words) off trauma. One has to learn to give it a place. And that could take years of therapy, practises and various methods. Books, alternative therapies, ... there is an arsenal of tools available but only you can decide what resonates with you. May you find peace. :)